1 Jan

Today is Christmas, December 25, 2011 and right around this time every year people get excited about the upcoming New Year. Several plans are made to grab hold of the newness wrapped up in the beginning of a new year. Dieting plans, kicking bad habits, letting go of old baggage. Pretty much getting rid of anything that does not add on to positive changes that we plant in our minds to help bring forth the new. Year after year we repeat this cycle.

Why is change linked with the upcoming of the next year?

January 1st the year rolls around and begins and it’s exciting. There is a list of brand new things to do, yet it seems by the middle of the month the excitement about each item on that list fades. How do you keep the enthusiasm after the fireworks are over and the only thing that needs adding to is working and waiting for things to happen.

We put so much emphasis around the idea of the actual New Year’s day that we forget to remember that real results take time. And in that time we learn resilience and patience.

Some results I got in my life when my circumstances wouldn’t let me get excited about any day happened because I put more emphasis on the work than the results and a timeline. My circumstances of not having everything I wanted, thought I needed made me deal with sacrifice, working while in pain, working without, constantly working when work was all I had to. A situation I would have likely in a normal day of life quit, waited for what I wanted, to begin again.

Sacrifice is demanded when it comes to obtaining anything you want. It’s hard to stay the course when things are knocking at you every which of way. It gets challenging to hold on to a dream while feeling like you’re being picked at, picked on, pushed, pulled and sometimes it feels like punished. Sometimes it’s hard to see how those things you are facing leads up to your goals and dreams.

When a situation feels like it has a hold on me I result more to junk food (comfort food). And I may waiver in situations that cause for sudden decision making. Each time when I do slack off, I always try to make a way to get back. That’s important. Instead of keep going the wrong way.

When those tests feel like they are not tests but how your life is going to be, the same things that were important before is not as important to you during that time. As if they never really were. And it was just going through the motions. After a while the light bulb always comes back on reminding you this is for your growth. This is a test. Trial and tribulation to make you stronger. It is rare that you’ll be able to see the light or hear the switch flicker on with crowds of people and their opinions.  Even when you are at the lowest, being alone and dealing with your fears again, served to you in a different way each time is when you start to remember. Family, friends, they all may try to mean well. But their words return to them unheeded to when your life depends mostly on what you know you have planned and what you presented to God.

Taking that into the New Year I have to remember my new years come often. Several times during a year to help restore my initial desires, thoughts and wants in going after something. Then holding on to it once I get it. It can’t just be January 1st. It’s too long of a wait until the next one comes around. So after each hard spot, challenge, obstacle or test I try to treat it like I would a new year. I’m physically running again, eating better, doing better, more humbled each time and I learn not to give up on things I’ve invested in. With my work, son and everything. No matter the obstacles that get in the way. It gets hard especially when it feels like I’ve been put on display to waste away in front of everyone. After the tears each time, not going forth is still not an option. So like a kid returns to a parent for love after a disciplining, I go back for more. God is God.

Happy New Year


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