Archive | August, 2012

Poetry(Kind of woman)

20 Aug

I love being able to look through the things that I write and it changes my mindset. It encourages me. Or to look back on something I’ve written from a while ago to see the changes in growth or if what I wrote then still applies now. Writing is a great timeline especially to the one who wrote it. It can also be timeless.

 

KIND OF WOMAN

I’m not the kind of woman
That won’t speak my mind
Or that will spend time, comparing what others have
To me & mine
I’m not the kind of woman that likes to sit and talk about others
Or acquire any kind of interest into already taken brothers
I’ve never been the kinda girl for pettiness.. So easily I’m not the kind of woman for cattiness, for drama and all that other mess
I’m the kind of woman that loves to do my own thing & take care of my business

Cannot be judged, When told to stay still I won’t be budged

Cannot be preached to, I won’t try to teach you

When I say God, people easily think pushover and easy to get their way

What they can’t see is what they don’t know and I am not the game you want to play.

I’m not the kind of woman that makes “friends” everywhere I go
But for those of which I already have, that are true, I do hold close
I’m also the kind of woman that easily gets  along
I’m the kind of woman who loves to hold her own
Who takes pride in herself, and have no problem being alone
I’m the kind of woman who likes to do what I want when I want
Who needs a man that does not mind me being strong
I’m the kind of woman that’s not easy..always been a little tough with the fellas,

But in the midst of life’s trials I can make you feel better
I’m not the kind of woman that spends time anywhere or with anyone, just for the hell of it
I’m conscientious about the company I keep and who I’m seen with
I’m the kind of woman that already knows her worth
So it’s not hard to take care of others and to sometimes put them first
I’m protective, selective
Receptive to growth
I’m a woman that’s special, different from most
I’m the kind of woman that works hard with my heart mind and my hands
A partner to my partner, I take care of my son & upgrade my man
First and foremost
I’m directed in life by my creator
I’m a woman that’s free in life thanks to my Savior
I’m the kind of woman that keeps going until I get what I want
I like to have some order in my life
And have things on point
I’m the kind of woman that picks me up when life pushes me down
I can be my own cheerleader sometimes it don’t always take a crowd
I’m the kind of woman that loves real hard,
And it takes a while but I do let down my guard
As tough as a woman I am, I do have a fragile heart
But I’m the kind of woman
That has a lot to offer and a lot To give, not just for anyone
I like to live life, spend time with my family and just have fun
I’m the kind of woman that came how I was made
That is made to love just how I am
Not for you to be pleased by my exterior and then you tell me to change that and change this
That’s just it
I’m the kind of woman I am for a reason
I like my space and don’t always want others up under me
Not in isolation, but with reservations, to spend quality time with the everlasting love of my life
A love that stays by the kind of woman I am
And never leaves my side
Who made me the kind of woman I am.*

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Poetry: Go Back

12 Aug

(A favorite piece)

GO BACK

Love stays on the heart
A while..
Time passes
It remains
So much to look forward to
Underneath all the pain
I’m still in love, as a matter of fact
I torture myself, to not go back
There was too much space and a time allotment
And I still can’t forget
About everything
I’m hardened to love in reverse
Too many years to rehearse
Just to never make the cut
And now I know what
This all means, that anything in back of me
Is right where it should be
I’m getting some things in tact
You can’t go forward going back
And plus
There’s the other stuff
I can’t allow those other women to have a chance to think
That because its the same man we are anywhere near on the same plank
That they hold a candle
Just because the man in the middle
Would settle for less
Instead of handling his business
Going back would boost their confidence, allow them to think they have some prominence,
To look at themselves next to me
And that just can’t be
Just in reality, if I let them believe that
Then I would hold the responsibility
And I don’t want to mislead
I’ve been delayed
But I wasn’t made
To go back where I’ve already been
In love with a man, to places and with friends
The past is just that
And sometimes it’s so hard not to,
But I can’t go back
You can walk faster and catch up
Not even sure if that’ll mean much
But the truth of the matter
And the matter of fact
Is that there aren’t many things good to look backwards to, so I just don’t go back

The Joys of Being Single

8 Aug

When you hear the word “single” the thing that might come to mind first is alone.

Alone isn’t necessary the case of a single lady.

Some of the elements of a single person:

> Body belongs to you: Once you master this, it’s powerful for your growth. That’s energy that can be geared towards something else.  Abstaining  means you have control. Control means you have power. Power means you are strong enough to make better decisions for YOURSELF.

> Your mind belongs to you: You are not constantly entertaining or thinking about someone thinking about you.

> You belong to you: escape the demands of titles and filling a role.

> Your immediate worries are first for yourself. When you wake up you can think about you. Then to everyone else after you’ve taken care of you. Everyone knows when you are in love, when you first wake up you are not the first person on your mind.

> Free heart. If you’ve been in love you think it’s the best feeling in the world. When you’re single you have the luxury of a free heart. When you can see couples on the street and smile and be happy for them, but are truly grateful for yourself, then you’ve really got it. (when holidays come around and in your moment of feeling alone, you think of the blessing in being single, you’ve got it.

> contentment: “but Godliness with contentment is great gain.”

> Happiness.  When you get passed the idea of being single is flossing, shopping every day, hanging out, and parties with friends, but still be genuinely happy.

The best thing about being single: There are specific details that I pinpointed of what I wanted in a mate and would not.   1.) Savior– I think a lot of men mess up going into a situation trying to be the superhero to impress the woman.  Maybe it’s a beautiful woman who looks like her situation can be a little bit better. Don’t play captain save em. In that you’ll find out if she’s also looking for a hero or a man. It’s helpful on both ends. 2.)Daddy. This is the guy that has experienced more and has all the answers and his conversation comes off more as preaching and fatherly than that of a boyfriend. This can be very annoying.  Talking down to the other person as if one party is less knowledgeable than the other serves for an awkward relationship. Find middle grounds and what works and stick to that.

Not accepting the captain save em mate, you’ll find out what he really has to offer.  Anything that can be bought comes with a receipt, therefore it can be returned, exchanged or replaced.

When you’ve spent enough time by yourself and have experienced a significant amount of growth you should find that all you want from another person is the person.