Archive | April, 2016

For National Poetry Month! 

30 Apr

somebody almost walked off wid alla my stuff 
not my poems or a dance i gave up in the street
 but somebody almost walked off wid alla my stuff

like a kleptomaniac workin hard & forgettin while stealin
 this is mine/this aint yr stuff/
now why don’t you put me back & let me hang out in my own self

somebody almost walked off wit alla my stuff ; didn’t care enuf to send a note home sayin 
i was late for my solo conversation
 or two sizes to small for my own tacky skirts

what can anybody do wit somethin of no value on
a open market/ did you getta dime for my things/
hey man/ where are you goin wid alla my stuff/
to ohh & ahh abt/ daddy/ i gotta mainline number 
from my own shit/ now wontcha put me back/ & let
 me play this duet/ wit silver ring in my nose/
honest to god/

somebody almost run off wit alla my stuff/ 
& i didnt bring anythin but the kick & sway of it 
the perfect ass for my man & none of it is theirs 
this is mine/ ntozake ‘her own things’/ that’s my name
 now give me my stuff/ i see ya hidin my laugh/ & how i
s it wif my legs open sometimes/ to give me 
some sunlight/ & there goes my love my toes my chewed 
up finger nails/ niggah/ wif the curls in yr hair/
mr. louisiana hot link/

i want my stuff back/
my rhythms & my voice/ open my mouth/ & let me talk ya 
outta/ throwin my shit in the sewar/ this is some delicate 
leg & whimsical kiss/ i gotta have to give to my choice/
without you runnin off wit alla my shit/
now you cant have me less i give me away/ i waz
doin all that/ til ya run off on a good thing/

who is this you left me wit/ some simple bitch 
widda bad attitude/ i wants my things/
i want my arm wit the hot iron scar/ & my leg wit the
 flea bite/ i want my calloused feet & quik language back
in my mouth/ fried plantains/ pineapple pear juice/ 
sun-ra & joseph & jules/ i want my own things/ how i lived them/
& give me my memories/ how i waz when i waz there/
you cant have them or do nothin wit them/

stealin my shit from me/ dont make it yrs/ makes it stolen/
somebody almost run off wit alla my stuff/ & i waz standin
 there/ lookin at myself/ the whole time 
& it waznt a spirit took my stuff/ waz a man whose 
ego walked round like Rodan’s shadow/ waz a man faster
n my innocence/

waz a lover/ i made too much 
room for/ almost run off wit alla my stuff/
& i didnt know i’d give it up so quik/ & the one runnin wit it/
don’t know he got it/ & i’m shoutin this is mine/ & he dont 
know he got it/ my stuff is the anonymous ripped off treasure
 of the year/

did you know somebody almost got away wit me/
me in a plastic bag under their arm/ me 
danglin on a string of personal carelessness/ i’m spattered wit
 mud & city rain/ & no i didnt get a chance to take a douche/
hey man/ this is not your prerogative/ i gotta have me in my
 pocket/ to get round like a good woman shd/ & make the poem
in the pot or the chicken in the dance/

what i got to do/
i gotta get my stuff to do it to/
why dont ya find yr own things/ & leave this package 
of me for my destiny/ what ya got to get from me/
i’ll give it to ya/ yeh/ i’ll give it to ya/
round 5:00 in the winter/ when the sky is blue-red/
& Dew City is gettin pressed/ if it’s really my stuff/
ya gotta give it to me/ if ya really want it/ i’m 
the only one/ can handle it

—–By: Ntozake Shange.

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My Sunday Inspiration 

24 Apr

“Through The Storm”

When you go through things in life, people expect you to respond in a manner that resembles lying down & dying. 

They don’t expect that you are going to keep going, keep smiling & actually keep enjoying your life. 

It is possible to face difficult times & continue to live life. While you are going through it. 

You don’t have to be and feel and respond and react the way others want you to, to make them happy. Keep being happy! Keep smiling! Keep living your life!

When bad things happen, I’M GOOD! That’s what people don’t want to see, believe or see you believing!

Some people will try to assess trials through your smile. If you look too happy then maybe what you are going through isn’t that bad. That’s how they think. 

When they see you face attack after attack & you are not losing your mind in a situation where you could be, should be, where they would be losing their minds, some people would rather add to your pain than trying to help you if you already seem “too” happy. 

Some people can’t take time out to see your pain & nurture you & provide you with love & affection because they see your anointing & they want to just know when the blessing is coming. 

With others, actions don’t match their words in how they deal with you, but that’s ok! They are skeptical of you. Although they deal with you. While they know or think you are “special” they don’t know all that you deal with in your life. They can’t deal with the difficulties of your life, until it’s over. Then they want to be at the celebration, the victory in your life, as if they’ve been there for you the entire way. 

When you are in a storm, it can add insult to injury & be difficult to face dealing with different kinds of people. Trying to discern their actions & keep your faith, when people you love hurt you, while they know you are hurting. Especially if you call these people family. They leave you to feel worse than the person who hurt you before did because you call them family. Be it an actual family memeber or someone who is close to you like family. 

You battle the question “why?”
“Dont you know what I’m dealing with? Do you care? Why would you try to hurt me more?” 

It makes you wonder. How you can face someone’s careless actions. I learned that just because you are careful with others does not mean that they will be careful with you. The way that you try to value people doesn’t mean that they value you. When someone hurts you, who says they love you and tries to justify their actions instead of apologizing, then you have to forgive them and keep it going. 

For yourself! Forgive yourself for allowing yourself to see that if someone would want to hurt you while you already going through a tumultuous time, then it’s something wrong with them and not you. 

Just because you have a major storm doesn’t mean that there won’t be showers throughout it. Happiness is the thing that you have to fight for. It comes from your JOY! When you discover that you can be joyful, happy, peaceful, content and full off of the goodness of God, nobody can take that away. 

So what if people know you are going through something! Keep smiling, keep pursuing your goals, keep being happy. In all situations you are in representation of God. An example to others!!! 

As hard as it can be, being chosen by God is a gift. 

Chosen to go through the trials to get to the triumphs. 

A vessel, not a victim. To be victorious in the kingdom of God! 

👏🏾🙌🏽

My Office Inspiration 

19 Apr

Having the perfect office space is important!

Inspiration can be drawn from various ideas or elements. 

In order to actually stop decorating or needing to redecorate to feel complete in an office space, one must go to every measure to design the office space exactly how it should be. No matter how ridiculous or over-the-top it might seem. 

Of course you’ll never get tired of adding more to it, that’s just how a creative mind works. 

In the pictures are hints of some office style inspiration for me. 

    
    
    
    
    
    

 
   
   

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10 Apr

  

Music 🎶

9 Apr

Some music I’m enjoying right now!🎶

No Apologies Needed🙂💋

7 Apr

To my enemies.

You’ll see why when karma comes for you! Out of all the people you’ve tried to hurt, I guarantee you, you’ll remember me. 💋
   
    
    
    
    
    
 

  
My confirmation! ☝🏽️

Remembering.

4 Apr

A memory can serve as a great asset when weighing the details of certain situations in one’s life. 

My memory has always served me well. Others, not so much. People want you to forgive them, but the heart doesn’t forget. 

God designed me fair. A characteristic I’ve always noticed about myself. So when I’ve written a sentence for someone in my life, it’s final & with love. 😘

#TheresPeaceInPeaceOut✌🏿️ #GoodInGoodbye✋🏽 #TheGiftOfGoodbye💝🎁

Life goes on! 🙂 And so do I. #Greater! #Growth!